Never Wanted

How long will it take to get you out of my system

Out of my mind

Away from my soul

I never wanted this much

This deeply

I couldn’t fathom

That I could be like them

Wanting

Willing

Hoping I’m next

I’m never next

At best

I am a thought

At worst

A passing blip

There will be

No lips touching

Only in dream

That is good

Adequate

If You Only Knew

If you only knew what you could not do, why even try

You can not step your foot out of the door

You can not venture out and explore

You can not sing in a high key

Wait a minute, that’s not you, that’s me

You can not go dancing in the rain

Or listen to it hit the window pane

You can not say hello to me

I mean really

Me?

I will not push and I will not pry

But why not try something you have bottled inside

Like, put anchovies on a pizza

Or actually go and finally meet her

Try on something that you like

They don’t like it; they can take a hike

Anxiety is a wretched thing

Not something to overcome easily

Never peace does it bring

I am not saying to go the opposite way

Too much is too much on any given day

What I am saying is to dip a toe in

Maybe two if you can swim

Let’s just have fun and just be

That’s all I got for now, Fia  Naturie xoxox

F. I.R.E

I am on fucking fire

from the top of my head to the bottom of my feet

The fire started from within

Blood drips from every opening

Sizzling the moment, it hits outer skin

I want to cry

But I can not

I screamed so loud

you hear not

Let me die

Maybe then you would see

Me!

They say we are more than

this body

The soul is who we are

What if the soul died a long time ago

Yes a soul can die, I think

I never asked one personally

Nerves are being singed now

Tremors erupts and you watch as the fire burns

You do not worry about me

You never did.

Collapsed as chard remains sizzle and smoke

What is left is the mind

That will soon leave as well