If You Only Knew

If you only knew what you could not do, why even try

You can not step your foot out of the door

You can not venture out and explore

You can not sing in a high key

Wait a minute, that’s not you, that’s me

You can not go dancing in the rain

Or listen to it hit the window pane

You can not say hello to me

I mean really

Me?

I will not push and I will not pry

But why not try something you have bottled inside

Like, put anchovies on a pizza

Or actually go and finally meet her

Try on something that you like

They don’t like it; they can take a hike

Anxiety is a wretched thing

Not something to overcome easily

Never peace does it bring

I am not saying to go the opposite way

Too much is too much on any given day

What I am saying is to dip a toe in

Maybe two if you can swim

Let’s just have fun and just be

That’s all I got for now, Fia Naturie xoxox

Love and Lust

There was someone out there impersonating me
That is impossible there is only one me
I am told there are trinkets and bouquets of all kinds
left at her feet as she bends the will of all she leaves behind

There are songs in sweet melody
There are sonnets “will you come to me?”
There are hearts that bleed open just for one touch
I do not care for any of this much

They say her name is love
I’m telling you that is not me
I am lust
I am free

I do not require flowers or trinkets for affection
What I require is to bring out every single imperfection
She is the day and I am the night
what we do will make the innocent take flight

When I walk on by
I want you on your knees
I want your mouth hanging open
I want you to hardly breathe

That pounding in your heart you feel
Is not of it breaking
It’s my darkness swirling around
It is mine for the taking

See she is sweet and I am tart
There are times we both can claim your heart
So do you know the difference now?
It’s plain to see
She is love
And I am me.

IDEA (Poem)

There once was a paper and pen.

Let’s start this from the beginning.

And not the end.

There once was a thought in my head.

Not fully formed.

Just an idea that bled.

It grew into this thing.

It had no real shape

Just twists and turns

Multiple rings.

It wanted to be free.

To be read

To seen

Then the paper met the pen

Like a rooster sees a hen

It struts and puff

Catching the eye

With crossing t’s and dotted I’s.

That how this all began

With just one thought

There will never be

An end.

Let’s Make Cream (Poem)

Let’s make cream

For every desert

From strawberries

To blueberries

To what under that shirt.

Let’s make it sweet

To counter the tart

From wicked decadence

To your beating heart.

Let’s make cream

That has a drizzle of red

When dripped on top

Goes right to your head.

I want to make cream

But I’ll just dream of it

Instead

Moaning and groaning

As plums dance in my head

With a sigh

And a whimper too

Can’t make cream

With out you.

Pied Piper (poem)

Do you hear that?

There it goes again.

A note so quiet

But compulsion draws me in.

“You finally came.

Want to be my pet?”

I turned around.

Was this some kind of bet?

Or was it a joke,

On me.

No one ever wanted.

What they see.

“It is you; I want.

Come to me, here.”

He pointed to the ground.

I moved with little fear.

“I felt your longing.

So I played that tune.

I brought you here.

In my dark room.”

I should run,

I should flee.

Oh, would someone help?

The innocence in me.

Then he stood

A giant of a man

Broad chest

Big hands

“Do you see the Instrument,

That I play?

Long and sleek

It does what I say.

Rather, notes come out.

on my command.

You’re the next one,

That will sing,

On demand.

A cold chill,

Then I’m hot.

I swallowed loudly.

As he touches my spot.

“Mm is this sugar or

Is this cream?”

My legs are trembling.

This is obscene.

He pulled away.

His instrument in sight.

Coating the mouthpiece

With such delight.

“I am the pied piper

And you see

What happens tonight

Will happen in three.

Tonight, I will taste you,

from root to tip.

Drink you up,

Every last bit.

Tomorrow will bring

a new plight.

You will return.

What I give to you,

Tonight.

On the rise of the moon

On the third night, you see

Will be your doom.

But pleasure for me.”

I should have ran.

I should have flee.

I didn’t really want to.

What does that say of me?

Stetson Hat

I had one drink.

Maybe it was four.

You pulled up a chair.

I heard it scrape against the floor.

I didn’t want to look.

But who was I to withstand?

The scent of masculine cologne.

The strength in those hands.

I finally looked.

But I could not see.

The eyes I knew.

That was undressing me.

“Good evening,” he said.

With timber so deep.

I shamelessly squirmed.

On this hard bar seat.

“Hi” I said.

Oh, did that come from me?

Not tonight girl.

You had a drink.

Okay you had three.

“I like the hat.”

It’s sleek and dark.

He chuckled at that.

It hit the mark.

“Can I get you some water?”

Who is this man?

He could have taken advantage.

I can’t even stand.

“This could be your night.

I had a few you see.”

He shook his head no

Who could this be?

“Oh, it will be my night.

With you, but not like this.

I want you to remember me.

And not some Hangover kiss.”

I took that water.

In one large swallow.

In greed

“Take a couple more.

I’ll give you what you need.”

He kept his word that night.

I never saw him again.

The moon was so bright.

There was more to this man.

He left me one thing.

Why I do not know.

That damn Stetson hat.

It makes me glow.

Secret Ride (POEM) Rated R

I wanted to be tied,

I wanted to be teased,

He wanted to get me,

To his knees.

Oh so wet,

Oh so hard,

Wanting to scream,

Till I see stars.

One little whip,

One little sting,

Makes little you.

Jump on a spring.

You say it’s a pulse,

It responds to a beat,

What is it called,

If I’m in heat?

Watch it glisten,

Watch it shine,

Twinkling diamonds,

Rolling behind.

To my back,

Massage the mounds,

Deepening moans,

Intensified sounds.

You wanted to play,

I wanted to see,

With tightening ropes,

On a Malabo breeze.

Is it time?

To take it there.

Wicked smiles,

Devilish glare,

This is our secret.

No, it’s not.

We have to keep it.

Not if you hit that spot.

Time has run out.

I’m wound tight on a string.

It’s time to do,

This devilish thing.

Once we are done.

And all has been tried.

No one knew,

I took that ride.

(Let me know how this made you feel. Likes are always welcome. But you can speak too.)

Goodbye My Lover pt 14 (Unwanted Advice)

Noel

“Hey Sammy, I have Fritz coming in and covering for a few hours.”

She stopped wiping the counter and gave me this look. Today Sammy seems to be channeling her badass with her short hair sleeked back and black-lined eye’s.

“Why would he be doing that?’ Questioning me with her arms folded waiting for my answer.

“I am going to see a movie.”

“A movie?”

“Yes, it’s not that unusual. I am going to see a movie.” I said turning my back to her acting normal.

“It’s not unheard of but you have not done it in a while.”

“Well, I guess the drought has ended, Sammy. I was invited. So I thought, why not? Let’s go to the movies.”

“You were invited by who?”

I looked at her and said, “you know who by.”

“I just want to hear you say it.”

“By Darlene.”

“Darkling asked you out. Very interesting.”

“Sammy, can you just wipe the counter and stop bugging me?”

“Oh, I’m bugging you now? Let me tell you a little something. You are going out with a human. A regular old natural human and you are a natural born nighter. There’s a few things you should know. ”

“Sammy. I am older than you. I may look like I’m just a few years older, but I have been around the block.”

“Yeah, that block has been turned to sand and rebuilt twice.”

Ouch she was hitting below the belt.

“You have been behind this shop for God knows how long and I have not seen you going out with someone if at all. If you do go out, you go out to the club to get your fix. And then you come back.

“My fix.?”

“You know what I mean? I’m not getting stuck on the technicalities, you know, what you go to the club for? Okay. ”

I turned around smiling at her because she was really excited for me.

“Now back about this date.”

“It’s a movie Sammy. ”

“It’s a date, boss. Humans. They’re not like how they used to be. You do not have to go and get her flowers. Because I know you were thinking about that.”

“Isn’t that the right thing to do to get someone flowers when you’re going out with them?”

“See what I’m saying? You were going to get her flowers. Do not get her flowers. You go to her door. dress nice, but casual. Don’t get too dressed up. Spray that cologne that drives all these little girls here. Insane. Pull your hair back in a ponytail. You look really nice when you’re really neat.”

“Okay, Sammy, you make me sound like I’m two years old.”

“I’m not. I’m just trying to give you pointers.”

I’m not supposed to give her anything. There you go. You will but that is later. Now, when you go on to date, she’s going to want to do 50/50.”

“50/50 What?”

“She’s going to want to pay half, so you have to pay half.”

“No, that’s not how it will go.’ I said but she kept speaking like she did not hear me.

“She’s going to want to pay. Let it go and you try to fight against your nature and let her pay half.” I will humor her since she feels the need to tell me all this but I have my own plans for tonight.

” Now, when it comes to eating.”

“We are just going to the movies.”

“She’s gonna get hungry. Take her to a nice restaurant. Let her eat and after she paid her part. You go and tell her that you’re going to use the bathroom. When she thinks, you are going to use the bathroom, you go to the maître d and you tell them, reverse the charge and you’re paying for the meal.

“That’s deceiving Sammy.”

“No that’s being chivalrous under cover.”

“What am I going to do with you?”

Darlene

“You seem very cheerful today what’s going on with you?” Penny asked.

“Nothing. Just have good ideas and ready to get this thing on the road. We are all in sync.” I said a bit to enthusiastically.

“Now. Something else is going on. Spill.”

“I don’t have to spill anything. What’s going on with you two? What are you guys doing?”

“Well, I’m going over to my mom’s because she’s been sick for a bit.

Colt said,” I’m going to go out with a couple of buddies.” something must be up with them because Colt does not go out with buddies. That is the most masculine I have ever heard him.

“That’s nice.”

” What are you gonna do? ” Penny asked again.

“Why is it so important about what am I doing?”

“Okay, you’re deflecting this question way too much. What are you doing?” Now that sounded like Colt.

“I’m going on a date.”

“A date.” That’s when Penny stared at colt.

“I’m going on a date. It’s not a big deal.”

“Where are you going?” Colt asked.

“We’re going to the movies.”

“The movies typical. How old are you? ”

” The movies is not first date material. You should go get something to eat, and maybe go to a club. Not the club that we went to, but a nice club and listen to some music.” Colt suggested.

” You guys can talk and get to know each other. Yeah, that sounds better than the movies.” Penny added.

“But I invited him to the movie. We’re going to the movies. ” I stood my ground.

“You invited him? Who is this woman sitting across from us?” Colt asked.

“I don’t know. Ever since the meeting it seems that Miss Darlene is showing who she truly is.” Penny said

“You know what? I just want to have fun and this is one of those times that I’m taking the initiative and I’m not waiting for someone to ask me out. I decided to asked him out.”

“Okay, that’s fine. What are you going to see? I don’t know what is out right now.”

” I’m on it.” Colt turned around and type on the computer to see what movies are out there in the theater.

” What are you wearing?”

I hadn’t thought about my outfit. I just wanted to go with the flow of things but now these two are making me nervous.

“Wear a dress.”

“Okay, mother.”

“Stop it. I’m being a friend. wear a dress. You look really nice in dresses. Why don’t you put your hair half up, half down too.”

“Okay, this is not America’s Next Top Model.”

“No, it’s not but I’m giving you advice. Your hair has beautiful waves. Put it half up, half down. Puta nice, pink, almost red lip gloss on and with your eyes just mascara because you want his focus on your mouth.”

Colt turned around. “Okay, there is no good movies out there. There is this horror movie out and I see it has six rotten tomatoes.

They continued the rest of the day in this manner until it was quitting time, and she was ready to go home.

“Have a good date.” they both said as they walked the opposite direction.

“Are you ready for chapter fifteen? If not get ready. the story has been semi-innocent, but things will be changing. Fia”