It’s exactly 8:45 am and Mr. Sojourn is late for his appointment with Dr. Bishop. Talia hated being the one to enforce the rules in the office but that’s part of the job of being an office manager.
Talia looked at her watch and it moved two more minutes down. She had enough. She proceeded to call the patient to reschedule. As she was informing the patient, who by the way was irate with the no-show fee, was yelling and threating her on the phone. She received a post it note from Maggie one of the R.N.’s on the floor if she was free tonight.
She looked at Maggie who decided that lime crime was the color of her hair for the day and held up her pointer finger signaling her to give her a minute.
“Mr Sojourn I am so sorry you feel this way but I will be sending you a copy of the form you filled out stating that you will pay a no-show fee if that situation ever arises and it has. Try to have a good day. Bye.” Talia hung up the phone, counted to ten in her mind and looked at Maggie.
“So what’s up Maggie?” She said in a calm tone that she was amazed she pulled off.
“Talia are you free tonight? I have been invited to a book reading and I need company.”
“Really you need company for a book reading. What’s is the real reason?”
Maggie just gave her normal smile and shrugged her shoulders as if she did not know what I was asking about. “Maggie…”
“Really I just want company and I thought you would like it. They’ll have drinks and finger food there. Please say yes.” She asked as she did her little kid bounce in anticipation of my answer.
“What time is this thing?” Talia asked sighing and rolling her eyes.
“Don’t act like that. It’s at eight. Casual wear, actually what you have on is perfect. I’ll pick you up at seven fifteen. Be ready or I’ll charge you a waiting fee.” She said smiling.
Talia could not help but smile at Maggie she always cheered her up. “I hope it’s not too much because this is not pay week.”
Both of them started laughing and went back to work.
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Maggie was not kidding when she said a book reading. The place was held in someone’s loft and a woman stood before all of us and read out of a book for over two hours. Then a gentle who was not hard on the eyes took over and she could not for the life of her remember what he was saying.
He read for another hour and a half, then it came to an end. Everyone stood and applauded. The readings were getting their hands shaken by everyone including Maggie. Which she looked like she was swaying a bit when the guy touched her hand.
Talia walked around with a glass of wine in her hand and looked at the table where other books were displayed.
“Your into fifty shades I see.” A voice that she could not forget said to her.
“Excuse me but no. That’s not my scene.” Talia turned towards the voice, and it was him. No one should look so good.
“So what book is peaking your interest? I’m curious.” He said with a slight smile.
She looked at the table again and she did not see anything worth reading. She looked at him and said, ” This is really my type of books.”
He kept looking at her as if he was sizing her up. “Not one thing is interesting you?”
She shook her head no.
“Would you take a recommendation then?”
“There is no harm in it. What do you recommend?” He lifted a book that had a black cover on it. Right away she knew it was those type of books.
“I told you before I am not into those type of books. NO tying or spanking or anything else that causes bodily harm.” She took a deep drink of wine and place the glass on the table. Then she proceeded to see if she could find Maggie.
“I understand. Why do you think I would give you a book you told me no to already?”
She snatched the book and opened it into the center. It was about pirates and treasures. She felt so embarrassed for assuming that he was a pervert.
“I’m so sorry.” She said to no one. As she was reading the book he walked away and she found him talking to Maggie.
Maggie walked right over to here with a look of ‘what did you do?’ written on her face.
“I’m sorry we should go. I made a total fool out of my self.” Talia said with her cheeks turning a bright red.
“It’s ok. He told me to give you his card and give him a call when you read the book.”
Talia looked at the card she handed her. His name was J. Parr. On the back of the card had his number and a time to call. Talia looked up at him as he continued to mingle with the guests.
She doubted she would call or if she ever would read the book.
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It’s been two weeks since the book reading and Talia pushed the who incident aside. Her life was too stressful to find time to read a book.
“Talia did you read the book he gave you?” Maggie asked with her eye’s looking bigger than the glasses she was wearing.
“No, why.”
“Talia that book is a number one best seller. Are you crazy?” Maggie asked
“So it not like he’s the auth……” She didn’t even look at the author of the book.
“He is the author of the book. Oh my god. He gave you his number to call over two weeks ago. The guy wanted you to call him.”
No this is really not happening. She really didn’t have time. Which she knew was a lie because she had no personal life to speak of to have no time at all. After Maggie dropped that bomb she went back to work. Talia’s day drag almost to a halt.
She promised herself that when she went home, she would read the book that’s been on her table since she received it.
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Talia ate her take out dinner and relaxed for the night. She began reading the book at seven and finished it at eleven thirty at night. It was captivating and she had to admit even the sex scenes were at a level that she could not peal her eye’s off the page.
She looked at the card he gave her to call, and she thought why not? All that could happen is that he didn’t want to talk to her again.
She picked up the phone and dialed the number. It was answered after the second ring.
“Hello”
“Hi it’s Talia. I finally read the book.”
“Oh you have. Was there any tying or spankings in there that I missed?” He asked as he laughed.
He remembered her. That was so unexpected.
“Don’t be quiet now. What did you think?”
“It was incredible. I can see why it went to number one.” She said then felt at a loss for words.
“Thank you. Can I ask you a question? You can either answer or don’t up to you.” He asked.
Talia felt like she was about to be trapped into something. “Ok, ask.”
“Do you trust people?”
Odd question. “Yes, I do. Why?”
“It took for you to read the middle of the book to trust I would not give you something you can’t handle.”
“Well I don’t know you.”
“Well do you want to change that?”
“I would like that.”
“My only stipulation is that you trust me. I have no reason to lie or take you where you’re not ready to be.”
“Completely trust you?”
“Yes.”
She swallowed whatever saliva that was left in her mouth and thought. Why not? She still has control.
“Your answer is?”
“Ok, I can do that.”
“Good night Talia. I will call you Saturday when I’m back in town.”
“Good night.”
2
The rest of the work week went on as if Talia’s mind was not preoccupied with writer. What bothered her the most was that she felt as if she was another person. It was hard to describe but she was not acting like the Talia that she cultivated all her life.
Normally it would be your parents that shape the child but when the parents send you away to distant relative to raise and they really were no better than the people who gave birth to you. You end up raising yourself.
“Talia..talia…Talia. Damn.” A voice yelled at her.
Talia snapped back to reality when the voice of annoyed Brian McCade seeped through her heavy thoughts.
“You do realize we have a meeting in ten minutes, right?”
“Of course. Why are you asking me that?” said with an annoyed tone.
“Listen you have been on edge for the last couple of days. The staff has been complaining that they are getting reprimanded for the most minute things. Tomorrow’s Saturday get some rest and come back with out the fire-breathing dragon.” He told her with true concern written on his face.
Was she really acting that bad? After the meeting she decided to confine herself to her office. She had a lot of work to do, so it was not far fetch that she would be there all day.
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The clock on the corner of her computer read four forty-five. It was almost time to go. Maggie must be on the same time counter because she walked right into her office and took a seat in front of her.
“So hiding much?” she asked staring right at Talia.
“What?”
“You heard me. Are you nervous that he’s back in town tomorrow?” How does Maggie do that know exactly what’s eating at her.
“No. I have things to do and if he catches me then….. we’ll see.”
“Your full of crap. Your upset that he has you waiting. Get a grip he’s busy, but he’s going to call you as soon as he get’s a chance.’ Maggie stood up and shook her head side to side. “Talia don’t do what you normally do.” with that being said she walked out her office.
Talia did not want Maggie’s advice, as matter of fact she had enough. She does not wait for no body, especially a man. It should be the other way around. Talia shut down her computer and left for the day.
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Saturday can only be described as a beautiful, picture book spring day. Talia rose to birds chirping and a soft breeze blowing through her apartment window.
To work off some of her steam last night she went to a kick boxing class and then sat in the steam room for thirty minutes. It helped allot. She finally had to admit that she was nervous and she was taking it out on every in a three feet radius of her.
She decided that she would go out to get her nails done and just put him out her mind. It was ten thirty when her cell phone went off with an unknown number. She really did not feel like dealing with these scam artists.
‘Listen you need to take me off you list. I will send this to the police.”
“Woo if you did not want me to call you, that’s all you had to say.”
“Oh I’m sorry I’ve been having unknown calls, hitting up on my cell phone.’ Talia could hear laugher on the other end of the phone.
‘I am sorry that you thought I was a scam artist. You are very aggressive with your intimidation. Are you free for lunch. I would love to discuss what you thought of my book.”
Talia was not sure it was a good idea. He already made her feel unsure of herself.
“We did agree about trust. I will be at the restaurant Deletorri on the upper east side. I trust you not to leave me sitting there all by myself. Oh and please don’t send the police, I won’t have any autograph books with me to give them.”
“Your confident I’ll show.”
The phone went dead. He hung up again before she had a chance to say yes or no. That was it. Yeah she was going to go and meet him. To tell him he could shove his trust down his throat.
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The restaurant was nice and not too crowded to. The he was sitting near the back of the room, drinking a glass of water. Talia walked over to the table ready to give him a piece of her mind.
“I have had…….”
He looked up with a smile on his face.
“You have had enough. Is that what you were about to say?”
“Yes. This is not how you ask someone out on a date.”
“Talia please sit and let’s talk.”
Talia sat down still angry about the way things were happening.
“Okay let’s be honest. Your upset that I took the control out of hands. It’s always the woman who has the choice to say yes or no. I did not give you that and your upset.
Also, your upset that I hung up and you did not get a chance to have the last word. Still a control issue is that not right.”
“You’re twisting this around. I don’t have a control issue.”
“I’m sorry if I read you wrong. Would you please accept my apology.”
Talia sat there staring at Parr and realized that she did not even know his first name.
“What is your first name. I cannot call your Mr. Parr all day.”
“It’s Julius Parr.”
The waiter came over to take their order and Talia decided to give him another chance.
“I would like to have a Caesar salad dressing on the side. For the main I would like linguini alfredo not too much sauce on it. If it’s too much I will send it back and a lemonade with the lemon wedge on the plate not in the drink. thank you.”
Julius watched her with a smile and listen to her take on his book. It was insightful. He did not utter a word since she sat down.
Talia started to feel uncomfortable by the lack of conversation. It seemed that she was doing all the talking.
“Why did you think I have a control issue?”
“I don’t think we should talk about that now.”
“Why not? You’re the person who had me promise to trust you. Trust is earned and I want to know why?”
“Your right. You do have a control issue. When we first met You said to me,’ no tying, no spanking and nothing to give bodily harm.’ Just like you told the waiter exactly what you wanted and that you would send it back. Just like you were going to come in here and tell me off so you can try to make me bow down in disgrace and apologies for treating you that way.”
Talia sat there as if cold water was splashed in her face. Everything he just said was true. But was she always like that?
“Look, I want to see you more than just casually. But I am not a vanilla type of person, and I can see something more than vanilla in you. I am not here to twist your arm. You’re, your own woman. But as confident as you come off. There is something else. Something that I see. That iron clad control must break. Your probably scared that a complete stranger see’s you better than anyone else.”
“You want to make me your slave?” Talia adrenaline started to pump through her. She needed to get out of there quick. “I’ve heard about people like you.”
“Talia calm down. I do not want to make you a slave.”
“Then I’m confused. You said not vanilla.”
“You are and a little scared, am I right? Why don’t we continue with our lunch and talk again about thing another time. I want to take things slow. How about dinner in two weeks. I will be out-of-town on book signings, but I will be back then. I am putting the control in your hands, would you like to have dinner with me?”
Talia looked at her food and could not help and see what he seen. Is she really that controlling? Wouldn’t Maggie have told here? Wouldn’t someone have told her? Did she want to see Julius again? He made her feel confused, yet she cannot deny the attraction she has towards him.
“Two weeks would be fine.” She said as he heart was still beating rapidly.
“Why don’t you do some research on me. Everything is on the internet and when we meet I can tell you what is true and what is fabricated. But of course it is up to you to decide. See I am still giving you the control that you need.”
“Yeah, but for how long is the question?”
3
The lunch uneased Talia. He claimed that she had trust issues and control issues. How can someone who just met her claim to know her?
Talia went to work on Monday morning with his claims on her mind. She needed to talk to Maggie. She would have called her on the weekend but she didn’t want to bother her with what was going on.
She waited until lunch time before she talked to her. Rather she came to her to talk as usual.
“So how did it go?” She looked at her like she went to meet the king of England.
“It was not what I expected. I went there to tell him off but it turned out he told me a few things.”
“Like what. Your killing me with anticipation.”
“He said I had trust issues and I have a control issue. Do you believe that?”
Maggie sat there looking at the floor before she said anything.
“You believe that don’t you? Maggie tell me the truth.”
“Well Talia he’s not wrong. I’m just amazed that he would just tell you when he just met you.”
“Oh my god Maggie if you thought I had these problems why didn’t you tell me?”
“Talia you are not the most receptive to listening about anything that could possibly be a problem with you. You tend to either yell or shut down.”
Talia sat there with a pain deep in her chest. Her closest friend was afraid to tell her the truth. Was she that bad?
“Are you to going to see him again? It seems like he’s getting under your skin.”
“I don’t think that would be such a good idea.”
“Why Talia, because he’s not afraid to tell you the truth. You run when things are not going your way. Girl do what you want. I’m going out to eat. You know it’s hard to care for a person more than they care about themselves. ”
“What do you mean?”
“Talia give him a chance. At least give your self a chance.” Maggie walked out without looking back.
Normally Talia would be pissed off at the world but how could she be if she felt like she fell in a hole. Yeah give him a chance.
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It’s been a week and half since the lunch date and Talia finally came out of what ever funk she was in. It kind of made her feel good that someone was willing to tell her about herself when the person she thought who was close to her couldn’t.
She decided to give Julius a call to have dinner. She was nervous to continue with a man who pushed her to the edge of being comfortably. But the attraction between them was palatable.
His phone rang and went straight to voice mail.
“Hi Julius it’s me Talia. I was wondering if dinner was still on the table. Give me a call when you can so we can talk. Bye”
She noticed that she sounded a bit nervous on the message. ‘Oh well it’s done.’ she thought to herself.
Julius did call. He called the Friday night of his return from the book tour. Talia was home watching CSI and enjoying her tai food when the phone rang. Not noticing the number, being that she was so engrossed in her show she just answered.
“Hello” she said half listening to the show and waiting for a response.
“Hi, Talia did I catch you at a bad time?”
She was caught off guard by hearing his voice she choked on her tai food.
“Talia are you alright?” He called out on the phone.
“Yes, sorry. Food went down the wrong way. I’m ok now. How was the signing?”
“The same as the others. I enjoy my fans, but I always want to come home. Anything interesting with you?”
Yeah right before him this was her normal Friday night or Maggie would drag her out.
“No not really.”
“So, I would love to take you out tomorrow night. I am supposed to meet up with a group of friends and have dinner would you accompany me.”
“You mean dinner with a group of writers?”
He started to laugh, and it made her tingle in all the places she thought was in hibernation.
“They are not all writers. I think you would enjoy it and you would get to know the type of people I feel comfortable around enough to call my friends.”
He wanted her to know him better. Is he going to push her comfort level again? Most likely yes. Is she willing to go through that, that was the question.
“Hello. It’s either yes or no. Remember don’t lie and tell me what you think I want to hear.”
Talia swallowed and said,” Yes I would love too.”
“Alright I will pick you up at eight.”
“Is there a dress code at the place.”
There was silence before he answered. “I would love to see you in a sexy casual outfit. But that is my preference not the restaurant. It’s up to you really. Text me your address and I’ll see you at eight. Goodnight Talia.”
He hung up without waiting for a response. She figured that was the way he was, so she did not let it bother her.
“Shit I have to go shopping tomorrow. Casual, Sexy outfit. I need Maggie.”
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Talia went for a black lace body suit with a gold skirt and blazer. This outfit called for no bra and she was fine with that, since the lace was thickest around her nipples. She shaved her legs and after it was dry she had Maggie draw a fine line from her heel to the edge of her bottom with waterproof eye liner. Just incase she sweats it wouldn’t rub off.
She took her shoulder length hair and put it in a top knot ponytail. That looked amazing drawing attention to her eyes that she lined black over the gold eyeshadow. Her lips she decided that a gloss would do since she wanted to emphasize her eyes.
Julius arrived right on time and when she met him downstairs the reaction to the way she looked was priceless. It was a combination of surprise and hunger.
He leaned in and gave her a light kiss on the cheek.
“You look amazing.”
Talia smiled and walked to car that was waiting for them in front of her building. They arrived at a restaurant at the edge of SoHo. Very small and dimly lit. Talia felt a little over dressed but she wanted to capture Julius attention any way.
They walked to a table that had three other couples there. At a brief introduction they sat and began what will always be called the illumination dinner.
The couple to Talia’s right was a husband (Fred) and wife (Alicia), were in the pastry business. He was of medium build and had a mustache. His wife was a bit heavy but a had a smile that was genuine. She wore a chain around her neck that had handcuffs on it closed. It seemed odd and out-of-place with her blue silk shirt.
The second couple (Greg and Luisa) were owners of several apartment complexes. He seems to find the buildings he would like to own and she buys them. He wore two thick wristbands that had a single ring on it.
The third and final couple (Grant and Joanna), seemed just as nice as the first two the only thing was she did not say much unless he gave her the ok. He was a writer of a weekly magazine that emphasize the changes in today’s society.
Talia looked at Julius and she wanted to ask a question but was not sure she should.
“By now, knowing how observant you are. I know you have questions Talia just ask because you are way to quiet.” Julius pushed.
She looked at every one at the table and blurted out, “Are you all into S&M? It just seems you all act like what I heard about.”
They all started to laugh. Luisa was the first to answer. “No, we are not all into S&M, that is Grant and Joanna’s deal. Greg and I are Dom and Sub. Fred and Alicia are like we are but the reverse. Meaning I am a Domme and Fred is a Dom. So, you may be confused as to what’s the difference.
I like to be in control and Greg enjoys not having that control. I do not degrade him and I for fill what he needs. Same as Fred and Alicia. Grant and Joanna are different in a way. He for fills her needs and wants. She does not want freedom away from him.”
“That’s not normal. What do you mean needs.”
“There are those people who have a hard time getting to a place of release. As a dom you have to know your sub and how far to take them for that pleasure. You don’t want to break them. Just guide them to where they need to be. It’s a beautiful thing.”
“Why?”
“Why? You like being in control 24/7? All the time have to do this or that because if you don’t you feel like your falling apart. Here is the thing you can not learn from the books. No matter what scene your into, it’s supposed to benefit the both of you. It’s never one-sided. More times than not vanilla is one sided. Do you always climax or do you fake it to please your partner. With this honesty and trust has to be first established or don’t even do it.”
Talia was feeling very uneasy. Is this what Julius wants. She can not give up her freedom.
“I can’t be owned. That’s for animals.”
“Och.” Fred said as he smiled at Talia.
“We are all married at this table except the two of you. To be married you sign a form agreeing to belong to one another. If you belong to someone isn’t that a nice way of saying own?”
“No, you’re twisting it.”
“No I am not. You own everything you have on. It belongs to you. You bought it.”
“Well see marriage is not bought.” Talia said.
They all smiled. “You pay for the license, the priest, the ring you wear. In the eye’s of the law you are owned.”
Talia ran out the restaurant. These people are crazy and they seemed so nice. Julius walked right out after her.
“Julius I can’t be owned.” A small tear slid down her check.
“Talia, I did not put that on the table. But I wanted to give you a look at normal people who are in the scene and live happy lives. Not vanilla, just appear vanilla.”
“So, your saying that you don’t want that with me. You don’t vanilla.”
Julius smiled, “I want a shade of chocolate with you. But tonight, I will give you the vanilla that you want. Be honest you do want me tonight?”
Talia looked at him, “Yes.”
We’ll tonight you will have me.
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Talia and Julius went back into the restaurant to finish there meal with the other’s. While they continued with various other topics Talia’s mind kept going to what will happen tonight with them. It will be taking them a step in a direction she was not sure she was ready for.
Julius stood and motioned to Talia that they were leaving. They said their goodbye’s and went to the car that was waiting for them outside the restaurant. When did he have time to order a car?
Talia was silent in the ride to her place. She had to be nervous because she is normally a bit more talkative than this. They left the car in silence and walked to her door.
“Talia are you alright?” Julius asked as he stood waiting for her to open her door to her apartment.
“Yes. Perfect.” she said.
As they walked inside. Julius spun her in his arms and kissed her. Deep and possessively. He tasted of the wine he drank and smelled of a masculine musk. As he started to break the kiss he pulled back taking her bottom lip and grazing it with his teeth.
Talia opened her heavy lids to look at Julius.
“If this is how you look being kissed, I can’t wait for the rest.”
Thinking went out the window. She wanted Julius in the worse way and tonight she can finally have him.
She walked him to her bedroom. It was the color of terracotta. The furniture went well with her scheme she thought. When she turned to Juluis he was not looking at the décor. His full attention was on her.
“I just need a second.” she whispered.
Julius nodded and went to sit on the bed. Talia ran to the bathroom and made sure every part of her was pleasant to the taste. She took more than a second, but Julius did not seem to mind.
He held out his hand and she went to him. He pulled her down on the soft bed and began an onslaught of kisses on her neck. His large hand caressed and squeezed her breast over her cloths.
Talia opened his shirt to feel his bare skin with her hands, then her lips followed. Taking his harden nipple into her mouth. She was a quiet lover she had been told but she was savoring the taste of Julius and he heard by her moans.
He lifted off her so she could remove her shoes, placing a kiss on each ankle. Then he reached for her skirt and slowly pulled it off revealing that Talia had completely shaved her tempting pussy.
Talia watched as he looked at her, trying to keep things to memory. He took his fingers and spread her moistened lips apart.
He entered her with a finger and she closed her eyes feeling and enjoying, the ease of how he entered her and withdrew.
“Open your eyes.” He said.
Talia pried them open to watch Julius. He took his finger out and placed it in his mouth sucking and making her wish his lips would be where his finger just left.
“Take off your top, let me see all of you.”
Talia removed her top and Julius reached for her pleading, ripened nipple. Caressing it with his thumb. Causing slight goose bumps to appear. Leaning over he took that eager bud into his mouth and suckled it as if he was trying to suck her very essence through it.
He released it and paid the other the same ohmage as the first. Talia moaned and almost purred in sexual bliss. She felt when he attempted to push his thick mushroomed head dick into her slick watered channel. She lifted a little to give him better access and Oh did he have better access.
Julius watched as she accepted him inside. Talia was grinding against him as he entered. He loved the way their bodies looked connected, and he was getting off by the loud moans Talia was giving.
Talia felt a glorious build start and Julius took his queue to increase his pace. He felt as if he had a bulls eye he created inside that he hit continuously without easing the intensity.
“Oh, oh…… Julius.” Talia screamed and arched as she came in waves. Julius entered her once, twice and released his seed into her as he watched Talia come down from her high.
Talia eye’s fluttered open as her breathing continued to be labored and her pussy ached from the memory of Julius visit.
Julius pulled out and discarded the used condom in a small trash basket she had in her bed room. He leaned over and kissed her deeply, yet softly.
“Talia you are so addictive. I need to leave now.”
“Why? We just shared something that was incredible.”
“It was incredible. But if I stay we will end up having sex again and I cannot hold myself back twice.”
“You did not enjoy it?” She looked with a confused look on her face.
“Don’t look like that. I enjoyed it immensely and if it is the last time, we ever be together then it’s a memory that will haunt me deliciously. But I should really leave. I’ll call you later today.”
He tenderly kissed her on her neck and proceeded to get his cloths and leave.
‘What just happen? I really don’t get him at all’. She thought as she turned over and silently cried into her pillow.
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Talia could not shake what happened between her and Julius. It did hurt that he left her after experiencing one of the most intense sexual encounters she’s ever had. Maybe it was because he could see right through her and she felt like she could let go around him.
The whole thing was just a jumbled mess in her head. She decided she would speak to him about it. She didn’t want to put stress on a situation before they even became a situation. That was another thing. Should she see this further? The sex was great but he did say he wanted more. Is it in her to do more, rather give a part of herself that will leave her exposed and vulnerable with no guarantee of where this is headed.
She decided she would not beat herself up with these thoughts and go for a run. After she will send him a message that they needed to talk, today. One way or another she had to know where this is leading or ending.
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It was one in the afternoon before Talia decided to contact Julius. She sent the message through her phone and did not have to wait long for a response.
(Julius, we need to talk.)
(I am free this evening. Would you like to come to my place?)
(How about six?)
(That’s fine. I’m sending you, my address. See you later.)
That was the jest of the phone message. No real feeling just a quick send and receive. Talia decided she would wear a loose top, comfy jeans with sneaker. She thought that if this were to be the end, then she was not going to get dressed up and look like an eager fool for a man who may not want her.
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It was six o one when the cab arrived in front of his brown stone home. She thought he lived in the city. As she walked up the steps to his home, she mentally gave herself a pep talk.
‘You got this. If he doesn’t want what you got then he doesn’t deserve it.’
She reached the door and pressed the bell waiting for him to answer. She heard foot steps rushing towards the door. The door was pulled open and Julius was wearing a white apron, no shirt, jeans and no shoes. He smiled showing the biggest dimples on his smiling face and his eye seemed to be dancing with excitement.
“Come in, I made us dinner.”
Talia just watched as he rushed back inside leaving her to close the door and go find him. His home was beautifully furnished. It looked like one of the designers on the home network put it together. She heard a mumbled sound coming from the kitchen. As she approached he was pulling out something from the oven and placing it on his island counter.
“I hope you like egg plant lasagna.” He said looking at her.
“I never had it before.”
“Great then I have nobody to compete with.”
Talia could not help but smile from the comment.
“Can you grab those glasses over there above the sink. We can go to the dining room to eat.”
The dinner was delicious. it was a nice feeling to be in his presence, without feeling she was on the witness stand all the time.
“So what’s on your mind Talia?”
She thought that too soon. She pushed her plate away and took a sip of wine.
“Last night you left, and I still did not get why? You said that you would not be able to hold your self back. I didn’t think you were.”
Julius smiled and drank some of his wine.
“Talia like I said last night. I truly enjoyed myself but I was holding my self back. I would never lie to you.”
“Then what else would you have wanted that you think I would not approve of?”
“This is where I think we should talk seriously about us. I am strongly attracted to you.”
‘Here it goes he’s going to call this thing off.’ she thought.
“But before we go any further, I know there are things we should have on the table. Like how many lovers have you had in your life? Have you ever been tested and what would you not stand for in a monogamous relationship? Your deal breaker so to speak.”
Wow again he’s full of surprises and waiting for an answer. She took another sip of wine and looked him straight in the eyes and answered, “I have had seven lovers. Really two the others were a convenience. I have been tested and I am cleared of all Std’s. What would be a deal breaker is unfaithfulness. I cannot do that. How about you.”
Julius replied,” I have had ten lover’s and seven of convenience as you so nicely put it. I have been tested and is also cleared of all Std’s. My deal breaker is honesty and respect. Now that we have that out of the way, here is the proposition. I want a relationship with you, but I cannot be anybody else than who I am.”
What did that mean? Talia had a questioning look on her face.
“I’ll explain. I am into the scene. I am a Dom so you would be my sub. You will behave as you normally do to everyone else but me. Once we are together, we will fall into our roles. I will not visit you at work because, they will question why you behave differently around me. I would love to take you with me to my events, but I will keep in mind that you are employed and that is important to you.
There are rules and for every rule that is broken there is a punishment. I love pleasure. I also like things on the riskier side sexually. Last night I did hold back, but that does not mean I did not enjoy myself.”
This was a lot to take in. Julius did not hold anything back. Talia was out of wine and her chest felt a bit constricted.
“Punishment?”
“I am not an abuser. My punishment tend to lean in a sexual manner. This is a lot to take in, but I do not want any misunderstandings between us. You will belong to me and I to you. I will take care you your needs as I deem fit. I do not like lies or holding back on how you feel about something if I ask. That definitely would deem a punishment.”
“So you want to control me?”
“In a sense yes. But I know you can handle it. This would be something that would go against your grain. I’ve watched you and you are very strong willed. If you make mind up to do something you do it. You can do this. If you want me. Otherwise, we can remain friends.”
“Not friends with benefits?”
“No just friends.”
This is a lot to absorb. Her head was spinning. Did she want someone that badly?
“So what’s in it for me?” Talia asked.
Julius smiled. “You mean, I’m not enough?” He laughed.” I am completely yours. I will treat you as woman, my woman should be treated at all times. You will be my lover in all ways. That is better shown than said.”
“Your friends wore things to show they were taken. Am I going to have to wear something?”
“Yes, but that won’t be revealed until you agree and sign papers of your agreement.”
“The papers.”
“Yes, there are papers, that are drawn up if you agree to what I am proposing to you. I am throwing allot at you. I will give your time to think. I will call a cab to get you home. When you decide, if you want this, just call me. Yes or no, please call me.”
Julius cleared the plates and called the cab. Talia sat there seriously thinking of everything that was discussed. The cab came and as she turned towards him for a kiss , he kissed her cheek. He took his thumb and glided it across her moist lips from the wine.
“The next time we kiss, it will be from me claiming you Talia. I’ll wait for your answer.” he said then he walked her to the cab.
6
Monday and Tuesday went by without a hitch. No one complained about Talia’s mood since she’s back to her same old self. The one thing that was a bit off was Maggie. She didn’t come in for a couple of days and when she tried calling her, she didn’t answer.
Maybe Mitch took her away for a couple of days unexpectedly. That didn’t sound like Mitch even to her. So she decided to go to her place after work, to see what was up. At least she didn’t have to think of Julius and the contract for a couple of hours.
Maggie lived near the ocean front. The houses there held about three family per unit. She lived on Maple Drive a house furthest out-of-the-way. Luckily, she drives because public transportation is terrible out here.
Tala notice her car sitting in the driveway. ‘Why is she not answering my calls?’ she thought. She walked up to the door and pressed the bell. She waited for a proximity two minutes before Maggie answered the door smelling like some bar that held drunks in it to many days.
“Maggie what’s wrong?”
Maggie collapsed in Talia’s arms and began to cry nonstop.
“He left Talia. Just up and left. He didn’t even wait till I was home on Friday. He left while I was at work. Worst yet he moved over seas. can you believe this shit?” Maggie slurred as they walked into her apartment.
Talia sat her down and looked at the place. It looked like she broke everything she could find that was his.
“Maggie just lay down and I’ll help you.”
“You can’t help, nobody can help. I’m alone once again and you’re throwing your opportunity to have someone love you away. What at pair we are.” Maggie said as she nodded off on the couch.
“Wow that’s how you really feel hugh?”
It took Talia close to three hours to get Maggie’s place back in order. She made black coffee for her and made her drink two. Then take two extra strength Tylenol to help with her head.
Talia waited until Maggie was clear enough to tell her what happened. Mitch left to go to Europe for a new job. He didn’t see the need to carry the relationship on because it wasn’t working out anyway. Maggie chuckled a little.
“You know he’s right. Why did I care anyway?”
“Because you’re a loving person and you want that in return. Nothing wrong with that.”
“Enough about me and nobody. How’s things with Julius?”
“It’s complicated.”
“Aww. man. Do you want him?”
“Yes.”
“Does he want you?”
“Yea, but…”
“Then no but’s. Just go with it. Whatever it is I’m pretty sure it can be worked out. If he treats you well and makes you happy and, in the end, loves you. Then you have it made.” Maggie said as she sipped more coffee.
“But he pushes my button’s.”
“Good. Shit let him push away. He had the guts to tell you something I couldn’t. You need that. Are you afraid you can’t give him what he wants?”
Maggie looked at Talia watching her reaction to the question.
“Listen you don’t know what you’re capable of if you don’t try. You never know he might be your happy ever after.”
‘Yeah if she only knew that the prince had some special needs.’ Talia thought.
She left Maggie’s place at ten. She decided that she is going to decide yes or not that night.
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Talia sat in front of two list that said all the reason why she should not go through with it and why she should. The shouldn’t, had a substantial amount. The should’s, had three. She had made up her mind.
She called Julius and waited for him to answer,
“Hello Talia. How are you tonight.”
“Why did he have to sound so smooth. Oh, it’s so helping his cause .”
“I have come to the decision that on paper. this is not a fit. But I want to see how this goes between us so yes, Julius I will yours. ”
Julius could not help laughing at her decision. She is exactly what he wanted. Now to show her, that he is what she needed.
“Talia, I will pick you up Friday night at seven. We will put the pen to paper and finalize everything.”
“You’re making this sound so cold.” Talia said with an uncertain tone in her voice.
“Oh no. Friday will be far from cold. Oh and pack to stay until Sunday.” He told her.
“She was excited and nervous rolled into one. “Goodnight Julius. ” She said.
“Good night my pet.” He said as he hung up.
‘Did he say pet?”